This past month has not been so good to me. I missed a couple of exciting events and make-up gigs to mention a few. I also missed writing some updates for this blog and filming videos for my newly put up channel on Youtube. So, in short, madaming missed opportunities, chances and work.
They say that things happen for a reason. Naniniwala naman ako dyan pero minsan hindi ko lang pinapasin. I thought my November would be a better month for me because I was looking forward to going to the Blogapalooza event in City of Dreams, which I have excitedly signed up for. I couldn’t wait for that day to come, but a few days on the first week of the month, I had to let go of a househelp or “kasambahay”. It would have been just an easy letting go of an employee, but this girl had to make a scene, fake an illness, and caused me to spend a lot of money just so she could leave us and maybe transfer to another employer. It was just so irritating and annoying how she wanted to end her contract. She could just have talked to me, that’s all. Anyway, enough of her. The Blogapalooza event was a big thing for me because I thought it could be instrumental in my wanting to be actively blogging again. And of course, I would get to meet new people. Oh, well, things happen for a reason…
After that I really just don’t know why and how things happened. It was crazy. I didn’t mind doing the chores at home, even when the kids were around, but for some reason we caught this viral illness that following week and we were all coughing! I believe our kids caught this from school. Me and some parents requested for their classrooms to be disinfected since a number of students were also been missing school because of cough, cold, and fever.
The good thing about this month though was that our family got the chance to go to Baguio and spend a long holiday time with the in-laws. Oh boy, we brought the entire barangay with us, hehehe! Three families up to the cold north! It was the needed breakand vacation for us parents and our children. it was bonding time for our kids as well. I was so happy for our kids since this time, they get to go and experience the mountains. Too bad though that I wasn’t able to film our vacation and vlog it. I wasn’t able to do OOTDs!!! Why? Well, since we didn’t have a yaya with us, my husband and I were so consumed looking after the kids, and just enjoying our different activities with them. So everyday was just like endless running after the kids, snapping random photos as much as we can. That could be really fun, but also tiring and exhausting at the same time. Not to mention that our days were filled with so many requests and complaints from the kids at the same time. You know how kids’ energy can be overwhelming and I don’t know how to exactly put them in words, but it was close to crazy fun. As for me, I struggled enjoying our time there because I wasn’t feeling well due to my cough, and was always praying not to have an asthma attack any moment. Anyway, here are some decent photos taken 🙂
At Burnham Park on our way to our van after a morning of biking, boating, etc…
Our youngest having fun at the Burnham Park playground.
Our little Igorots, who didn’t want to put on those costumes at first, but got the hang of it when they were given the props 🙂
Boat ride time!
The entire gang!
Me and my dear son at Tam-Awan Village
Under a nipa hut
Posing in front of a stone carving.
A pond inside the Tam-Awan Village.
Dear youngest posing for some photos
After that trip, it was close to hell for me. I was like ill all the time. It was like this viral infection decide to take a vacation inside me as well. I had tons of chores to do, from clothes to wash, to entire house to clean and organise. It was truly difficult for me because I wasn’t feeling well. I couldn’t move as much as I can. I felt so uncomfortable. My chest was filled with phlegm; I couldn’t breathe very well fearing an asthma attack could happen anytime. Also, I can’t remember very well when exactly I lost my eyeglasses, but I struggled and had this extremely painful headache for 5 days before I could get myself a new pair of lighter eyeglasses. I could hardly function for a couple of weeks!
I really hated my self this month. I was a complete disaster. I lost weight, which I ‘m not happy about. My temper was terrible, I was so angry and irritated all the time! My kids were always the victim of my bad temper, and I’m so sorry about that. I didn’t want that to happen, but it did. I don’t know why that was happening to me. I was way out of control. I was a bomb threatening to explode any moment. It was a case of crash and burn for me. I was wanting to get all things together, but failing miserably, and then hating myself for doing so. I was really mad at my self! But everything happens for a reason…why this is happening to me, I have yet to find out and understand. However, life goes on and so I am facing December with a smile…