Self-help

My life’s simple yet real dramas.

Dampened Spirit


Last week, I was told by someone that my grammar was bad.

I must say that honestly, that dampened my spirit.  And I was already having a hard time (no one can tell) trying to get my old zealous self back for the past 8 years.  Yes, for 8 years now and probably counting.  I can’t say that I am improving or going somewhere because… I cannot tell for myself how I am doing!  I’ve dabbled into a lot of different things just to get going.  I couldn’t keep a decent job… I actually have great jobs, it’s just that I couldn’t keep any one of them for longer than a year.  That’s not a good career track record.

Tigilan natin ang pagpapanggap.

Minsan sa buhay naging magaling ako sa maraming bagay.  Academics, non-academics.  Sa lovelife lang ako palpak at aminado ako dyan.  Kapareha ko yung kumare kong hindi ko na babanggitin kung sino.  Kami daw yung tanga sa pag-ibig sa barkada namin.  Kilala nya kung sino sya, so shout out sa’yo kumars!

Ginagawa ko ang pinakamahusay ko sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko, hindi dahil gustong marinig ang papuri ng iba, kundi gustong masabi sa sarili ko na “Ang galing ko!”  Kapag kasi nasasabi ko yon sa sarili ko, sumasaya ang pakiramdam ko.  Achievement sa akin ang bawat bagay na nagagawa ko nang maayos.  Dahil lumaki akong hindi nakukuha ang majority ng gustuhin ko, palagi akong nagsusumikap na magkaroon ng tyansa o opportunity na maipakita ko yung best ko.  Achiever nga ang gusto ko para sa sarili ko.  Ang galing kong mag-English before.  Ginagalingan ko talaga kasi pangarap kong maging “broadcaster.”  Pero dati iyon.

Naoperahan na ako, dalawang beses.  Ceasarean.  Kaya naman hindi ko na masyadong matandaan ang mga iba’t ibang kaganapan sa buhay ko pero merong dalawang pangyayari sa buhay ko ang… teka hindi ko masabi kung papaano sa Tagalog, pero tipong “being a good English speaker worked against me”, ganyan.  May ganyang eksena sa buhay ko.  Dalawa yon.  Kaya after mangyari yung mga yon, sinubukang kong medyo maging slighty below average ng  good English speaker… umayon ako sa mga nakakasalamuha ko sa araw-araw.  Hindi ko na ginawang effort ang maging magaling magsalita, lalo sa English.  Inalis ko sa sistema ko ang salitang BIBO.  Sumabay dito ang English communication skills ko.  Ang pag asta ko rin ay naging depende sa kung sino ang mga kasama at kausap ko.  At bilang naoperan na nga ako (oo, isinisisi ko tong delema ko sa pagkaka-opera! yang anesthesia na yan, iyan ang salarin!) nahirapan akong mag-adjust o lumevel up everytime may mga fluent sa English na tao ang kaharap ko.  Malalaman mo yan kasi tahimik ako.  Minsan, one-two words reply lang.  Nothing too high faluting or terms na too fancy.  Well, bakit naman pa eh, mas maiintindihan naman ako ng kausap ko sa mga simpleng English words lang na ginagamit ko.  Minsan, depende na rin sa mood ko.  Na-experience ko na rin kasing maiwasan dahil sa mga fancy English terms na yan.  So, nag-stick lang ako sa mga vocabs ng mga typical Holywood movies.  Syempre dun lang.  Yung mga catch-phrases ng mga movies na yan.  Isang rason, marami ang nakapanood.  May ilang phrases na maaaring hindi naintindihan or gets nung iba pero at least kahit papaano, may reference sila kung saan nila narinig yung expression diba?  So magkakaintindihan kami ng kausap ko.  Bottomline, nag-aadjust ako sa kung sino ang kausap ko.  Bottomline, kailangan magkaintindihan kami ng kausap ko.  Bottomline, lumaon na mas naging importante sa akin na komportable yung kausap ko na makipag-usap sa akin.

Mas marami ang experiences ko na kapag komportable yung kausap ko, mas nailalabas nila yung nais nilang sabihin, kesa sa umi-English ako tapos nase-stress yung kausap ko.  Mas naging sensitive ako sa mga ganung eksena sa buhay.  Yung tipong kitang kita mo na nahihiya ang kausap mo sayo dahil mas magaling kang makipag-usap in English kesa sa kanila.  At dahil mas naging importante sa akin yung kausap ko, malimit na makikita mong nagsta-struggle din ako sa kung ano ang sasabihin ko.  Mahirap yung nasa ganoon sitwasyon.

So, what am I saying here?  I guess I don’t know exactly.  I’m simply airing out the bad feelings I got because of that simple comment.  It may be true or not.  I may need to address it sooner or later, but for now, I just want the bad effect come out of me.  If it needs to be through this blog, well then you are reading my venting out of bad vibes 🙂  Thank you for reading, and for understanding me.  Later I will try yoga, maybe it would help.  🙂

Smile always,

MISS R

 

 

 

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My FS Cosmetics Collection, Finally!


So finally I got a chance to have a semi-complete collection of FS Cosmetics (Features and Shades) make-up.  Naturally, what a make-up enthusiast like me is going to do is try everything out, so here is my first ever make-up haul ( I hope for more to come soon, hehe) and a make-up practice because, well I’m getting rusty in the craft, you know! 🙂  But, #LoveYourBeauty ika nga ni FS Cosmetics, right girls?! 🙂

Hope you enjoy!

FS Cosmetics Make-up Haul:

 

And here is the practice…

 

And here is my finished product!  Excuse my eye-maletas 🙂

 

While doing and editing these videos, I’ve discovered about fast-forwarding some clips, which has now inspired me to do more videos because now I can shorted them for faster uploads!  hehehe!  Cheers to more videos soon!

 

Smile always!

Miss R

 

My Goals for 2018


Today I wrote down my list of goals for this year.  I started doing this since 2012 when I was so down, depressed and lost.  I did it after reading this book about happiness by Andrew Matthews.  I can’t remember which one already, sorry guys, but he’s got some insights that helped me get on with my life smiling.

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Last year’s list

It’s like a new year’s resolution list, but it’s different in such a way that I can add up new goals anytime within the time frame, like if something happens or things and stuff changes like something may not be attainable anymore.  It also does not need to start on the beginning of the year, like in my case now.  If you want to make yours, you can start it anytime you want as long as it starts the moment you write down and finish your list.  You can start any month you want, just set the time frame to short term and long term.

So, what is it?  It is simply a list of goals and wants, which I try to accomplish, attain or acquire in a year’s time, then 3 years, then 5 years.  Then every now and then I check and tick-off my progress.  Then after a year I check and evaluate myself like how many and which ones of my goals were achieved.  Then I ask myself how do I feel about it.  If a goal is something that I really want, but failed to achieve due to whatever reason or excuse, I write it down and include it again onto the following year’s list until I am able to achieve, cross and tick it off the list.  As for me, I noticed that my list gets shorter and shorter throughout the years.  So then I add goals which I think challenges me on top of just getting tangible things.  There is also a list for what I hope my entire family would achieve and do within a year, or 3 years or 5 years.

The goals could be material stuff like update my wardrobe or upgrade gadgets; or certain tasks like food trip once a week/month; or traits and characteristics I intend to change or improve on like be more focused or assertive, etc…  It is always better to go over 30 items or goals for each time frame.  The goals could be minor or major, simple or grand.  You’ll never know if a simple task or thing could bring you so much delight and joy.   It is sort of like making my personal KPIs or Key Performance Indicators, which will then help me evaluate my happiness.  This, I agree with the book, is our ultimate motivation in life anyway.

So good luck to me and if you started writing yours, good luck to you too and have fun!

Smile always!

MISS R

New Creative Hobby


A fews weeks ago I started this new hobby while I wait for my son during his swimming class in school — color on coloring books.  I thought it would be a good way to pull in and get my creative juices flow naturally in me again, hehehe.

Anyway, since it was a good one hour of swim class, I thought about doing something to kill time while my son does his strokes.  At first I thought of jotting down notes for my blog or actually writing down my blog as blogging on my phone through the WordPress app drains battery life.  So on the 2nd day of class, I brought a notebook and pen.  Then I thought it was repetitive to write down the blog piece on my notebook then type on the computer when we get home.  So I thought of doing something else…

On one of those casual visits to the mall, I went to this interesting shop – MINISO.  I was glad that I did.  They have such a variety of items, which are both affordable and of good quality.  I’m in love with their kitchen and dining items, but didn’t purchase for the sole reason that I didn’t need to get new plates and utensils, hehehe.  One item I bought there was this colouring book…

Coloring book

Well, this simply caught my eye and thought that it was neat, and why not try coloring on this colouring book while I wait during my son’s swimming class?  Unlike other colouring books for grown ups in other bookstores out there, this one has simpler images 🙂  I didn’t want to get overwhelmed with so much graphics and illustrations that I’m afraid I would just end up not finishing any illustrations or image at all.

So this coloring book has 50 pages inside —  32 pages with illustrations and 18 blank pages.  Isn’t that nice?  Some blank pages for when you wanna draw and have your own illustrations or drawings!  The coloring book also comes in different cover designs and a paper wrap, which shows you a glimpse of the illustrations you will see inside each book (sorry I threw away my book’s wrapping already as of this writing).

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On one of the blank pages I swatched the colors of the different color pencils that we have at home.  Of course I borrowed from my kids 🙂  Got a couple from Colleen, Faber-Castell, Maped and Sterling.  I don’t have the complete set of Maped and Sterling anymore because my kids have already misplaced them, hehehe.  I love the shade and quality of Colleen.  I’d probably get their color pencil set in 32 or more pencils.  They even have neon colors.

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Color swatches…  

Here are what I have done so far…

Thanks for reading!

Smile always,

MISS R