Author: Rosanie Cudala

I'm a working mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister and an aspiring hair & make-up artist at your service. Blogging about life, fashion ang make-up is my career now so let's share thoughts and experiences about LIFE.

Dampened Spirit


Last week, I was told by someone that my grammar was bad.

I must say that honestly, that dampened my spirit.  And I was already having a hard time (no one can tell) trying to get my old zealous self back for the past 8 years.  Yes, for 8 years now and probably counting.  I can’t say that I am improving or going somewhere because… I cannot tell for myself how I am doing!  I’ve dabbled into a lot of different things just to get going.  I couldn’t keep a decent job… I actually have great jobs, it’s just that I couldn’t keep any one of them for longer than a year.  That’s not a good career track record.

Tigilan natin ang pagpapanggap.

Minsan sa buhay naging magaling ako sa maraming bagay.  Academics, non-academics.  Sa lovelife lang ako palpak at aminado ako dyan.  Kapareha ko yung kumare kong hindi ko na babanggitin kung sino.  Kami daw yung tanga sa pag-ibig sa barkada namin.  Kilala nya kung sino sya, so shout out sa’yo kumars!

Ginagawa ko ang pinakamahusay ko sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko, hindi dahil gustong marinig ang papuri ng iba, kundi gustong masabi sa sarili ko na “Ang galing ko!”  Kapag kasi nasasabi ko yon sa sarili ko, sumasaya ang pakiramdam ko.  Achievement sa akin ang bawat bagay na nagagawa ko nang maayos.  Dahil lumaki akong hindi nakukuha ang majority ng gustuhin ko, palagi akong nagsusumikap na magkaroon ng tyansa o opportunity na maipakita ko yung best ko.  Achiever nga ang gusto ko para sa sarili ko.  Ang galing kong mag-English before.  Ginagalingan ko talaga kasi pangarap kong maging “broadcaster.”  Pero dati iyon.

Naoperahan na ako, dalawang beses.  Ceasarean.  Kaya naman hindi ko na masyadong matandaan ang mga iba’t ibang kaganapan sa buhay ko pero merong dalawang pangyayari sa buhay ko ang… teka hindi ko masabi kung papaano sa Tagalog, pero tipong “being a good English speaker worked against me”, ganyan.  May ganyang eksena sa buhay ko.  Dalawa yon.  Kaya after mangyari yung mga yon, sinubukang kong medyo maging slighty below average ng  good English speaker… umayon ako sa mga nakakasalamuha ko sa araw-araw.  Hindi ko na ginawang effort ang maging magaling magsalita, lalo sa English.  Inalis ko sa sistema ko ang salitang BIBO.  Sumabay dito ang English communication skills ko.  Ang pag asta ko rin ay naging depende sa kung sino ang mga kasama at kausap ko.  At bilang naoperan na nga ako (oo, isinisisi ko tong delema ko sa pagkaka-opera! yang anesthesia na yan, iyan ang salarin!) nahirapan akong mag-adjust o lumevel up everytime may mga fluent sa English na tao ang kaharap ko.  Malalaman mo yan kasi tahimik ako.  Minsan, one-two words reply lang.  Nothing too high faluting or terms na too fancy.  Well, bakit naman pa eh, mas maiintindihan naman ako ng kausap ko sa mga simpleng English words lang na ginagamit ko.  Minsan, depende na rin sa mood ko.  Na-experience ko na rin kasing maiwasan dahil sa mga fancy English terms na yan.  So, nag-stick lang ako sa mga vocabs ng mga typical Holywood movies.  Syempre dun lang.  Yung mga catch-phrases ng mga movies na yan.  Isang rason, marami ang nakapanood.  May ilang phrases na maaaring hindi naintindihan or gets nung iba pero at least kahit papaano, may reference sila kung saan nila narinig yung expression diba?  So magkakaintindihan kami ng kausap ko.  Bottomline, nag-aadjust ako sa kung sino ang kausap ko.  Bottomline, kailangan magkaintindihan kami ng kausap ko.  Bottomline, lumaon na mas naging importante sa akin na komportable yung kausap ko na makipag-usap sa akin.

Mas marami ang experiences ko na kapag komportable yung kausap ko, mas nailalabas nila yung nais nilang sabihin, kesa sa umi-English ako tapos nase-stress yung kausap ko.  Mas naging sensitive ako sa mga ganung eksena sa buhay.  Yung tipong kitang kita mo na nahihiya ang kausap mo sayo dahil mas magaling kang makipag-usap in English kesa sa kanila.  At dahil mas naging importante sa akin yung kausap ko, malimit na makikita mong nagsta-struggle din ako sa kung ano ang sasabihin ko.  Mahirap yung nasa ganoon sitwasyon.

So, what am I saying here?  I guess I don’t know exactly.  I’m simply airing out the bad feelings I got because of that simple comment.  It may be true or not.  I may need to address it sooner or later, but for now, I just want the bad effect come out of me.  If it needs to be through this blog, well then you are reading my venting out of bad vibes 🙂  Thank you for reading, and for understanding me.  Later I will try yoga, maybe it would help.  🙂

Smile always,

MISS R

 

 

 

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First Product Review for 2019


Today I finally finished filming, uploading and sharing my first product review for this year 2019!  Exciting!  I hope I get to do more of this product reviewing this year.  Can’t believe it took me the entire day to produce and launch this content for my Youtube channel.  Yes, I do have a Youtube channel like almost everyone already, hehe.

Moving onto my product review, I must be honest and say that I got a little bit disappointed with the product – the WithMe Signal Velvet Lip Master.  The shade that I got is 03 Mood Signal.  It didn’t last long on my lips, though the box says that it lasts a long time.

My first try of it was last Jan 3 in the morning, wore the shade until after work, which finished around 10PM.  So after eating dinner, it was almost totally gone.  Then I tried to apply it again on Jan 5, in the hope that maybe it will last longer this time.  It didn’t.  After finishing filming for this review, I ate a pear and it’s almost got wiped out.

Anyway, watch my simple review here!

 

I really liked the color/shade, though and how the product felt on my lips.  Very lightweight and not drying.  It’s really matte.

How about you?  Have you tried any lipsticks from WithMe?  Share your experience, too! 🙂

Don’t forget to subscribe to my channel, too!

 

Smile always,

MISS R

 

Aquaman PH Fan Event


I would have to say a very special thanks to a dear friend of mine – Ian Cruz of Pinoy Batman Kolektors for giving me the chance to witness this awesome event.  This is my first ever Holywood movie event, and also my first with DC Comics.  I hope to have more of this kind of events in 2019.

Anyway, without much ado, below are some photos my not so great photography skills have taken.  I also did a vlog about this event/experience over my Youtube channel, which I hope you could also watch 🙂  Enjoy as much as I did!!!

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Here is my vlog of this event:

 

OH wait, there’s more…  I also got to do this in the video booth they had at the venue hall…  https://aquaman.wb.com/ph/?hk17Xn

🙂

Smile always!

MISS R

 

Coffee Project Experience


Last August we celebrated my father’s birthday in All Home along C5 Extn, Las Pinas City.  After a “pwede na” paluto lunch, we headed to Coffee Project, just beside it, for a quick coffee treat.

I’ve always been curious to go to Coffee Project since I’ve been seeing new branches sprouting in many places now.  From the outside you will see an interesting facade as it looks more of a fancy restaurant than the usual coffee shop.

Here is a quick vlog about our visit there.  In terms of food, well I’m not a foodie so my reaction and verdict to their food and coffee offerings is very basic – masarap naman 🙂  Although for the coffee jelly drink that I ordered, medyo bitin sa jelly 🙂

If only I could afford and eat a slice of all those cakes!!

Smile always!

Miss R